Fuck My Life

I cant take this shit anymore... im going fucking crazy and its makeing me depressed and sad and angry and im just pissed...

I barley get to see becca now, the rest of summer break im still barly gonna get to see her... i love her to death but i really dont think she cares anymore... i love her more than life itself, and i always will... i want to spend the rest of my life with her, but the way shes been acting lately, makes me think that im screwing up her life, that im just a burden and that im gonna screw up her dream of denison college and living in a dorm and all that...

everything in my life was perfect untill the damn states for me and her both... the states screwed up my life... the life that i liked and the life that i want back... the life where me and becca were in the perfect relationship, where i didnt feel like shit about being with her... where i didnt feel like i was being a burden... now it feels like she barley wants to see me, like she dosnt want to be with me, like im just a pass by guy... something to keep her company untill she goes to college... thats what i feel like... she didnt seem sad when i told her i might have to move, she didnt seem like she cared when i wasnt feelin alright, im halfway in tears just cause my life sucks so bad right now... i just want it all to be over...

I love that girl so much... and i hope she still feels the same about me