Once in the future...

Well today was interesting kinna, Woke up at 10:45 and decided we have 15 min if we were gonna go to school... so we cruised to school with a hangover and went to school all day... which sucked... i got to personal finance like 20 min late... oh well Ms. James didnt care... then I was talking with Becca! YAY that made me happy... We started talking about stuff, and made me think about a few things... ill get to that later in my post...

Last night was amazing... we had 4L sunshine, 24 Becks, 24 MGD, and 2 5L Kegs... AMAZING... lol funny as hell... Dave was drunk, as usual... we all woke up with a hangover...

Im so inlove with Becca... There is no doubt i love her more than anything... Im always thinking about her, and i just cant get enough of her... Im sad she couldnt come today, she had a Chem study group to go to... which is good, keep her grades up... so im hopeing she can come over tommorow... 

We were talking about stuff, and just like... i dunno, but when she talks about her future, it dosnt sound like she expects me to be there... i want to spend the rest of my life with her, and it just feels wierd when she talks about it like that... Dunno...

I was in one of my paranoid moods today, i hate having that... and i could tell becca didnt like it...

I am so inlove with this girl... GAH... i dont think she even knows, i want to spend the rest of my life with her, grow old with her, be the one she comes home to and the one that i get to see walk down the isle towards me.... the one i get to put the ring on, and have forever... she means everything to me, absolutly everything in the world... i love her so much... ive been gone from her for only like an hour now and i already miss her...

Im proud of her! shes on a german team for tennis! thats awesome, only downside is that she wont be able to hang out as much, she has to practice everyday after school... so i get her on sundays at like 13:00 and saturdays at like 16:00... i was thinking too... theres gonna be german guys, and she thinks the german language is really really hot, so... but its ok... i trust her not to cheat on me, even though i might have my paranoia days every here and there... I dont know what i would do if i lost her... and i REALLY hope she means it when she says well spend forever together... i dont know how to tell if she does or not... but i hope so... 

Well not much else on my mind... i have to completly redo my iPod, screwed up a bit... takes like an hour though... so np... then mabys some of my online course... and by then becca should call me and ill be happy...